To the shadows,

Many years ago, I spent some time playing in the blogosphere. I had blogs and wrote lengthy entries. I spent time browsing among other blogs and I believe that I enjoyed it. It was also around that time that I wrote creatively. I felt the energies align toward writing something of a novel. I never really got that far, I can do beginnings… but I have such a hard time getting through the middle parts.

Then I ran into some hiccups and that part of me that could focus the brain toward writing in that way, seemed to break. No longer could I just sit and pull those thoughts and ideas together and draft a story. I experienced something traumatic that shattered something inside of me. While I have since put myself back together again, that feeling that was present before was no longer there. One of many changes in my life that is hard to explain to folks who have never experienced something similar.

I have mental health issues and there are times when I am in what I call one of my “neurotic” moods. I don’t always make the most rational or healthy choices when I’m in that state of mind. I have decided to start a journal to share my thoughts and feelings and creativity. I hope to get back into doing creative activities again. Follow through and accountability are hard. Having a presence outside of the little bubble I sit in on my couch is something I’m hoping helps me.

So, here we go. I have no idea what craziness might appear.